Where have I been? I ask myself the same question. For some reason known and unknown, I seem to have lost myself the past year. For the most part, I just wanted to be the best girlfriend that I could be. I failed! Now I am left to reflect.
- I became too relationship-oriented and I lost touch with friends that were important to me.
- We were inseperable and there was no space to breathe. We needed some time and space apart. As a result, we argued over anything and everything.
- I gave too much in the relationship.
- I was poor at communicating my feelings. Instead of talking things out, I'd get emotional and say hurtful things. An argument would become a contest to see who could hurt the other person more. After we argued, we'd just try to put everything behind us. Day after day, all the issues escalated.
- Change my horrific temper and take a mild approach to conflicts and disagreements. I don't know why sometimes I lose control of myself.
- Be a bit selfish when needed. Never lose touch with friends and family and things that are important to me for my relationship.
- Be independent.
- Love myself before loving another person.
I fell really hard this time, but I learned. It's time to read the Alchemist again.
